PRECARIOUS!

Why is that blob of snow stuck there in the tree, when all the rest of the snow already fell out? Do you ever feel like you are stuck in a tree waiting to fall out? I do!

In fact right now I feel that in a very big way. Some events I don't need to share here have left me feeling a bit vulnerable. Now, before you start calling me and asking, let me just say this is not a thing of physical safety, and nobody is attacking me. In fact, give me a few days and I'll say "What are you talking about, I don't remember any issues like that arising.

I've just come to realize that many times when we feel settled into a situation we can suddenly look around and see that it really isn't as comfortable as we thought in the first place. It is PRECARIOUS!

I'm finding myself a bit unsure in one area, and it spreads. Yep, like ivy it entangles itself into all areas of my life, not just the place it started. So, suddenly I question whether I want to enter a certain contest with my scrapbooking, not because anything about my scrapbooking has changed, not because the contest has suddenly changed. Instead, I get this feeling because some other totally random thing in my life has become unsure.

And other things are impacted as well. Should I call that person to follow up on what we last discussed? Oh, no, since I'm unsure in that other thing, I better become irrationally unsure in my relationships as well. Throw in some insecurity relative to my parenting, my role as wife, and my ability to be a friend to anyone while I'm at it. You know, I might as well go all the way once I've started down this path.

SILLY ME!

Does this sound familiar to anyone? I hope not, but at the same time, I suspect I'm not the only human being out there who plays these stupid mental games with myself.

So, how do I stop it? Easy - Go to the Word of God. Yep! I know not everyone out there in Blog world is going to see the logic in this. But, when I look at verses like: "For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." (Ephesians 2:10) I just have to realize that no matter how precarious I might feel, I have purpose and value! I was created for a purpose. God does have a plan for me. And boy does that help when that little tiny ivy cutting of insecurity tries to take over the whole world - or at least my whole life!

So, am I going to enter the contest? I plan to, but I'm not going to work on the entry tonight as I planned. I'll wait until tomorrow or the next day when I am more relaxed - I can't get any creative mojo going when I'm feeling precarious. Am I going to follow up with my friends? Yep. Am I going continue to do what I know is right as a parent, wife and friend? Yep. Why? Because it is right. Because it is me. Because I can do it.

But for right now, I'm going to go to bed and start tomorrow with a new perspective.